Nov 22 2008
Faith over fear
This is the mantra used my ttcam board that I am on frequently. Since finding my positive pregnancy test I am extremely paranoid that I will lose another baby. I don’t discuss it with my dear sweetie, no I don’t want him to worry. I’ll just worry myself to death about it. People tell me to stop worrying as if this is something I enjoy. I don’t , in fact I would love more than anything to be the type of person that says screw it. My sister and brother are like that. I keep telling myself faith over fear as if this is some magic spell that will automatically make everything ok. That and prayer. I want to believe and I want to have faith over fear. But when you are let down so many times in your life it is hard to be magically healed and become optimistic.I want my cup to be half full (not half empty) and I want to believe the God will not give me more than I can handle.
