Sep 17 2008
Fighting
We, my significant other and I, hardly fight at all. ha ha. Not very funny. We usually have a few major blow ups a year over something stupid and say alot of things we shouldn’t't but then we get over it and never discuss the problem, ever. He is a hard working construction guy, busts his butt 40 to 60 hours a weeks in the summer and is off the winters. Before when I was working it was hard leaving him at home in the winters thinking we cuddle and stay inside where it’s warm and be all snugly. Yeah not in this lifetime. Now that I am a stay at home mom (i.e. I do nothing all day but lay on the couch, per him) those first 3 weeks of the winter we barely talk and usually have one of the major blow ups and don’t speak at all for a few weeks. Sound fun? It’s not. Well it seems our fight may be coming alittle early this year. He has been snapping at every little thing and making comments here and there. The microwave isn’t clean (after he blew up his dinner in it) , I didn’t wipe down the library books with clorox wipes, our babies toys are on the floor, the carpet is dirty. Jesus does it ever stop? I realize this year things have been extremely slow in the construction world and we will have a tight winter but we will be ok. I have started babysitting to help offset some of the bills and make a little money for myself. Last night I said”What is wrong with you? Every little problem you have a comment, you act as if I am stupid. You act as if you don’t want to be here” he says, “I don’t I am sick of you”. Ok fair enough. Right now all he has to do is come home and sit down. Maybe cut the grass. Everything and I do mean everything else I do. He does not even get his own drink. I say “well So what do you want me to do? leave?” he says “I don’t care. Do something about it”. At this point in my life I am 39 with a 2 1/2 year old no job, other than babysitting, No money of my own and no place else to go. Nice. I have 20 years experience in the healthcare field, but we decided I would quit my job and stay home with our daughter.But he is right about one thing. This is my problem and if I am not happy with it, then I need to make some serious choices. and soon.
